What is it?

that caused me to feel this way?
Just what is it??

Maybe I'm just too demanding especially with my close ones.. Especially him..

Today, I told myself that I want to be more independent, so that I wouldn't depend on babe, so that I won't always have the urge to meet him, to spend time with him.. But at the same time, I just want to depend on God for all things!

What a contradiction!

But ya, you know what I mean!
Seriously, I feel sad not feeling doted and loved by, but at the same time, I'm thankful for not overly pampered! I've just reasoned myself out with Aqilah and Ivan this afternoon, telling them that the only person I turn to to recharge me with "sayangs" is really him.. So maybe because of this not so right mindset of mind, when I don feel it, I often associate with him..

I'm quite sure he'll never read given that he's quite unaware that me blogging:)

Cheers to that!

Well, but all in all, I think God for all that has happened, and I only know that greater events are ahead!:)

All glory to Him!:)

Amen!

God is so beautiful!